Thursday, March 23, 2017


came back from my first holiday in 2017 and it was great! 2017 would be the year im planning the big decision in my life, but im not sure yet. well, we will see how it goes. btw, im going for half marathon this year. hope can be done this year.

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

current life

macam biasa, setiap kali nak kena buat hujahan mesti aku takde idea lalu berblog, or idea berblog datang lalu tak boleh buat hujahan. eh? mengantuk gila azab. stuck dengan dua files lagi ni sebelum mula hujahan semula. deng! tapi apesal aku mengantuk tahap mata ada gam gajah ni!? apa pun, hujahan kena siap! *tunjuk lengan gagah* sabtu ni aku naik kinabalu, lulululu. seram oi! balik kinabalu aku kena settlekan banyak benda pending, etc etc etc. aku dah 29 tahun depan, time is ticking time is running. kalau aku tak start sekarang memang sudahnya tidak akan ada cerita. *tunjuk lengan sebelah pula* ok, mari menjadi productive.*tiada lengan lagi boleh ditunjuk* p/s: time to step out of the comfort zone.

Monday, September 5, 2016


I going to take care of myself after this. 

I will do anything i want to do, i will go anywhere i want, i will buy any handbag i want, i will say anything cross my mind. 

Thinking of others is restless.

Lets end here

Wednesday, August 17, 2016


why is it so difficult for me to fall in love with real person but i can fall in love with fictional character within minutes!


not matured enough. pfft.

at this age of 28 years old, i am now in love with Yasu the Baldy man.


till then, peace!

Monday, March 7, 2016

4th march 2016 im 28!

gah! im feeling so old! and im feeling a lot of emotional.
nothing special, i just want to make everyone around me happy.
ok then, oh yeah, i need a lot of me time.
till then. xoxo

Friday, November 6, 2015


Rough day so here i am. Writing blogging the stress away. Theres so much on my plate right now. I cant seems to know which one is more important and which one is urgent as everything seems fairly urgently need attention. And i make mistake. A real effed up mistake i feel like stabbing a pillow. Ok fine. No joke. Seriously. But then, as writing this, that mistake not that really big as earth big. But still. Arghh im so effed up. Someone really close to me seems to take me down. I dont know. I just feel like that. Maybe the intention is good but why you so, i mean sooo sigh. Cant find the word. This uneasy feeling i hate the most. Feeling everything does not work for me.everything against me and feeling soo low. Someone ask me how im dealing with stress and she was like no wonder i am so positive as i need positivity to combat these negativity. True is. I failed today. This very day i feel things out of my control im so screwed up i want my mom. Ice cream. Beach. Anything that make me feel better

Monday, September 28, 2015

letter to datema

hi babe.

life is treating me fine. going places here and there. surrounded with people i like and love. still, i never forget you datema. no matter how much fun we had, it would never be the same without you. miss your laugh, your non-stop talking, your jokes, everything. you know, i have this one song which is my favorite at the moment. could have been me by the struts. the band is kind of ridiculous. but u know me, i love weird stuffs. this song reminds me that i need to do everything crossed and stayed in my mind. since you gone, it kind of hit me that i have to just do it anything i want. don't wait. i learned that. it's been a year plus since you passed away and the last time i cried in the open court. not cool at all. i know. i never thought someone close to me will leave me. not by any disease. i was wrong. we are all His servants and He is in control of our lives. there are days that i miss you so much that i went through all our facebook conversations and stupid comments. thank God for facebook. something that i am afraid of is that i will forget about you. i am afraid that i will forget all the memories that we had together. what we done, song we sang together. our travel plan. all that. we plan a lot but Allah knows best. i still remember you calling me benchmark. haha. true babe. if you are still here, i probably will fill in the forms together with you. haila fatema, i have lost interest in any korean dorama. what is fun without discussing and commenting the story with you? no fun at all. no meroyan buddy. our political scenario also getting weird and funny everyday. i miss your funny and outspoken comments. currency is dropping and our ringgit really become picisan babe. what a sad situation for us. 

second paragraph because the first one is too long to read later. haha. i never thought i will miss you this much babe. never thought u could leave me such a big impact. ok then, i have work actually. but i think writing a letter to you is more important. talking about priority. ahaha. bye babe. love you.