Monday, October 16, 2017

ranting time

im going to rant today. after all, this is the original purpose of this blog before.
TO RANT ON THINGS THAT ANNOY ME SO MUCH I CAN NOT STAND.
haha. typing the words kinda give a refreshing feeling. 

i talked to one grumpy client today. omg. help me. i was being so nice and polite and she was plain rude. i dont want to go into details. i'm just annoyed. yeah, i should be more kind and patient. sabr, sabr, sabr. maybe she had a monday blues today. yeah, whateve.

bye.


Friday, October 13, 2017

jumaat

hello, aku tak sempat blogging posts untuk rabu dan khamis.
kegigihan bertahan literally like one day? lol. i was busy with work and meetings.
tapi tak apa, berusaha sedaya mungkin.

"berapa banyak saving sebulan kau simpan?"
my parents asked me this question yesterday.
honestly, i don't have any saving.
i spend all my money on travel.
as i continuously planning "my-next-trip" every month, so i allocate probably half of my income on that.

to my defense, what is the point of saving if i die next year, have lot of money but unable doing things i like because of "i-need-to-save-money-for-the-future". then my brilliant mak argued, "bila kau dah nak mati, kau cari ilmu bukan cari dunia!" she has been nagging me about going to quran classes since forever. die, all my arguments just die. haha.

So, yeah, let save money shall we? save some money for emergency and for akhirat. yeah, let do this!

p/s: mani, pedi, facial are important ok? budget for that remained as before. sekian.

Tuesday, October 10, 2017

busur hujan

nampak tak azzam baru aku nak buat blog post setiap hari just untuk random daily dose.
semangat!
aku ada 2 pending minutes. Ya ampun! bercinta sungguh nak menghabiskan!

By the way, aku ada dengar ceramah ustaz kata Nabi Muhammad (swt) suka bagi makan orang.
semoga kita rajin belanja kawan makan dan orang lain juga.
semoga pahala kita pun berlipat ganda.
Aku harap rezeki kita dimurahkan supaya kita boleh tolong orang lain.
spiritual level tinggi sedikit hari ini.

p/s: sila dengar busur hujan. go youtube.

Monday, October 9, 2017

berkira-kira

lunch with usual people at the not-so-usual place.
sampai tempat makan, baru sedar aku langsung tak ada cash money.
saedatul pun begitu.
the only person with cash money is sarra, but only RM25.00++

hah! joke on us! bila masa begini, baru kau rasa alangkah bagusnya kalau semua tempat guna debit card.
tapi ini warung. so, bila order kena tengok harga dulu.
terasa kuasa membeli seperti ditarik kembali ke zaman belajar.
padan muka aku! lol.





 

Friday, October 6, 2017

nooooo!

i met sarra after work, yesterday. she said i looked like someone in love.
my reaction was "noooo!"
"the only man i have conversation with today is my boss!"
LOL. i am so pathetic.
nay, i am not in love.
not in contact with any man. (esp. married one) hell noooo! (please God, i beg you!)


p/s: she further explained that i was all bright and positive when we talked about relationship unlike the usual me who is bitter when it comes to love. haha, i did not realized that. probably the after effect of a lot of family comedy movies. hehe.

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

luahan rasa

lepas aku balik Nagoya, aku perasan aku macam lost. Lost dalam erti kata aku mula rasa x keruan sebab aku xde plan nak berjalan. Tapi, bila dah rancang trip travel, hati aku still x puas. Lepastu aku rasa apa aku nak dalam hidup? What next? this void feeling is so annoying, hunting my mind every single second. 

Buatkan aku terfikir, where are all this "do-it-now-or-never" coming from. Kemudian, aku teringat Ateem. sejak Ateem meninggal, aku semacam dirasuk semangat "do-it-now-or-never" yang gigih nak penuhkan bucket list. Sebelum Ateem meninggal, we have this VIP group chat where we discussed where we want to go next. As usual, Ateem being the most semangat one, she was the one who posted a lot of recommended places to go. Then, she passed away. Ateem meninggal buatkan aku terfikir, aku kena buat semua yang aku nak, hidup hanya sekali dan aku tak tahu bila aku pergi. So, for the past few years, i have been traveling to a lot of places because "it is now or never guys". Traveling is something we always look forward, the VIP group. Perhaps, by traveling, i found peace with her death. 

Traveling solo probably the ultimate thing yang aku nak sangat buat. Lepas travel solo, this feeling right now, i do not know how to explain. aku rasa, alhamdulillah, jyeah done jalan solo. Lepastu i basically, have nothing in mind. What should i do next? Apa aku patut buat? Do i need to get married? Do i need to further my study? do i need to do career change? these questions linger in my mind. At first i thought maybe i need to plan another trip to look forward, so i planned one. done. but this feeling still bothering me. i am bored. i feel something missing. Like, i need a change.

Dont get me wrong, i love my life right now, my parents are with me, friends who are always there for me, my bosses are perfect and workplace is peace! what more do i need? 

..........

aku mengantuk tadi. dozed off. hahahaha.

(Sambung balik)

Mungkin aku patut take one step at a time. enjoy the moment. Chill. read more books, exercise more, eat healthy. live simple normal life. Ada ke normal life? i think kita semua ada hidup yang pelik yang kita cuba untuk buatkan hidup itu jadi senormal mungkin. what my friends going through, their hardship, i pray nothing but only the best for them and my life too. Something happened in my life which change my perception 100%. i was so stressed and miserable thinking about it. At the end, i gave up thinking so much. what ever happened already in the past. nothing i can do about it. nothing i can change. u have no idea how traumatized i felt. i just want to forget about it. i do not want to care anymore. This part of my memory i want to erase completely. Sometimes,when u encountered things which u can't fixed, you need to walk away from them.

Sunday, August 13, 2017

my first solo trip (fifth day; 28/06/2017)



28/6/2017 fifth day



pukul 5.00 pagi ok aku pergi onsen. hari ni memang aku sengaja bangun awal sebab aku nak mandi onsen lagi, mandi awal sebab tak nak mandi dengan orang lain. haha. onsen ni open dari 5.00pm sampai 8.00am everyday. so ko kena pandai2 cari masa kalau kau suka kan privacy. best gila. dalam pukul 7.00am aku dah keluar menapak pergi nagoya station. jauh woi, so aku kena bajet masalah, hujan rintik2, nasib ada mcm subway bawah tanah, so selamat. flight aku pukul 10.15am, sedang elok la sampai airport check in semua. tiket nagoya station ke airport 870yen.

kali ni transit dekat hanoi. aku melepak main hp je. sampai KLIA, aku tunggu zati. omg, happy gila jumpa someone familiar and having a a real conversation. haha. patutnya flight aku ke Kuantan malam tu jugak, tapi sebab Mas tiba2 cancel flight malam tu, so aku kena bermalam dekat capsule hotel dekat klia 2. flight aku keesokkan harinya ke kuantan.

all in all, bajet aku ke nagoya kurang dari RM3k. haha, murah kan, mostly sebab kebanyakan tempat aku pergi xpayah bayar, x ada entrance fee and transportation pun kira oklah, aku banyak berjalan. accommodation pun aku memang pilih hostel la first choice. So, nagoya is a good place to go, aku pun x faham kenapa review mcm kata x best. bagi aku ok la. tak hectic macam osaka, and peaceful. aku memang suka tempat kampung2, so aku boleh jadi bias. haha.


jajan jepun staff dekat kyoya ryokan bagi. awwww

habis satu buku aku baca ok.

capsule hotel. pening weh duduk dalam ni. memang terkepung.

p/s: berjalan solo dan berjalan dengan kawan, dua-dua ada pro n cons. berjalan dengan member, kau kena being considerate with your friends tak boleh nak ikut kepala kau je nak pergi mana2. berjalan sorang, aku memang selagi boleh aku jalan je, my friends are all aware of this fact. so dua-dua aku enjoy. this is my first solo trip so bagi aku memang memorable. orang tanya tak rindu ke ketupat rendang bagai, aku jawab tak, aku lagi bangga berat aku turun. haha. so, apalagi, if you want to try it, go do it!