Bittersweet

This bittersweet feeling. How to make it go away?

I must be insane to feel what i am feeling right now. 

It is way too late. 

Too late to realize. Too late to notice. Too late to even say it.

I lost my moment. My time has gone without i realizing it. 

Time is not waiting for me. 

I feel very much lonely right now. 

Duh. Life is funny.

F'ed up

I'm tired. 

I had it all enough.

Just like i thought, it will end at "almost".

Great start 2015. 

cross that water rafting

following  my azzam list

FINALLY I CAN SAY THIS,  I SURVIVED WHITE WATER RAFTING!

hehe. over nau. yeah, i've been planning to do this since i was in LLB kot, now can kiss and say,

 "well, nailed it"

for new azzam, i'm thinking of :

• traveling
• hiking
• running / jogging 

since Fatema passed away, it really gave a big impact on my life; life is short. it's either you do it now or forget it. Live life gratefully each and everyday, enjoy the little things and appreciate people who care about you. 

 

what ever happens, one thing i'm sure and i want is; going places with my love ones. so, to many years of traveling  together! cheers! :D

 

love, need and want

remember my movie list?

now can cross lunchbox. simple but sweet movie. (and makes me hungry)

and something random came across my mind and i am in the opinion:

instead of saying i love you, i would prefer someone say " i need you or i want you in my life"

one can actually love without wanting you in his life, so what matter?

p/s: and i am still missing fatema. good friend like her, is someone irreplaceable. May Allah bless her. 

datema

25.09.1987 - 16.07.2014

  

for the good times,

for the lame jokes,

for the fun times,

for the pda times,

for the geli times,

for the hard times,

for the broke times,

for the fan girls times,

i will remember all of those times, i cherish the most.

you are part of my journey, never shall i forget you.
time is never enough but im grateful for the time we spent together.

rest well my friend.

Bad decision

U have no idea how much i love free and easy weekend. More specifically, stay-at-home weekend.

Saturday selected movie;

This husband so handsome one. My type. Seriously. *insert cheeky sounds.

What can i say. This is a sad movie where the handsome husband cries a lot. 

When u made a bad decision, u suffer more, things getting worse. What are you gonna do?

The stolen years; 2013

SISTERS FOR LIFE AND INFINITY

i write, moment of silence, deep sigh, then i save; TIMES 20.

this is by far the most difficult post i am about to write.

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ 

after 5 hours. 

this is supposed to be a serious and sad post. but i guess, the subject itself is a happy and cheerful living thang, that is why the sadness can not fit in.

and one living thang just annoyed me that i seriously wanna give her my do-i-look-like-i-care? look. 

i hate people. i only love people when they are in tv or movies. other than that. nay.

whateve. 

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so my dear friend, 

(you know who you are)

the battle is just begin.

nothing is impossible and impossible is nothing.

i heard something over the radio;

"Allah tak menurunkan penyakit tanpa ubatnya"

you are by far the most kental and brave woman i have ever known and you have every right to feel the sadness, depression, fears and tears. (i mean, i always breakdown without valid reason. who need reason anyway? WE FEEL WHAT WE FEEL)

so, live your life to the fullest and fight "it" with style.

 

just want you to know that;

as what we started with vip for life, 

now will change to SISTERS FOR LIFE AND INFINITY. 

waaa, big bang really do good thing what?

they are the reason why we became close right?

you know you always have me to be anything you like right?

i love to listen;

i can do conversation, but only crap;

i can be your crying lap? my shoulder not really nice;

above all. beat it !

xoxo